on 28th march. fri. night.
i attended a wake.
sad.
always got reminded when attending wakes.
makes me think a lot too.
cry i do feel like.
but control i always do.
for this wake, i suddenly have this thought..
"how does it feel like at death? or near death?"
crazy i am.
i dunno y this question appeared in my head.
"what happens if i die?"
"what happens if someone close die?"
the wakes i attended.
fren's mother, fren's grandma.
fren's family cry. the others console.
i shldn't even talk about all this.
i shldn't even think about all this.
i'm blessed.
blessed i have yet to experience death falling on me
-> a full stop? or a question mark?
ppl will say "choy!"
ppl will say "u think too much.."
ppl will say "pls find something better to do k?"
i dont think i'm the only one thinking or talking abt it.
everyone will think but dont dare to talk.
or even dont dare to think.
but what must happen will happen.
by faith.. we as Christian.. have to trust that..
death will bring us back to Him.
death will let us hold His hands.
He will be preparing a big feast to welcome us.
so is death scary or sad or relieve?
i dont know yet.
now, to me it's just sad.
chances i always miss. sorry i always say.
change i tried to do. success it's hard to come.
talk i always do. action i dont really do.
lazy i really am. punishment i really deserve.
